Hi Friend!

So school has started and it's in full effect. It's been a good time so far and the work is a lot kind of but enjoyable. Have had some good nights and some not so good nights, but this quarter is looking to be quite the adventure. I'm a little confused but honestly choose not to even think about it and just let things happen. I'm leaving soon anyways so no need to stress about things. My living situation is great but lonely sometimes. It's all good though. Lovefest was yesterday, or should say lovevolution. It was so much fun, we got there early and didn't even have to pay the 1o dollars! Pretty sweet. Saw deadmau5 and was right in front, wayy sweet! And on the drive home we stopped at in n out, mmm. Got back and watched detroit rock city with dave and went to bed. Today's been a homework day and I actually signed up to be in a soccer league with people from the ILC. Sounds like a lot of fun, I'm really excited actually. Well I should try and finish my spanish homework now, adieu!

Rouge

I'm in Chicago at the moment helping my sister move into her new apartment here and just hanging out for a few days. My mom leaves saturday morning and I don't leave until Wednesday. Tomorrow I'm going to see Bloody Beetroots and Crookers! I'm very stoked to finally be seeing them both, but it's too bad I won't be going to hard summer. Anyways, my time here has been fun and I guess the fin part is barely coming because we are finished moving my sister in now. I already miss home though. I miss my Santa Cruz friends and my friends in LA. I got a call from a friend in SC tonight calling because he was in LA but unfortunately I'm all the half way across the country! Oh well. I really miss h too, I don't think I've gone this long without seeing him ever since I met him over a year ago. It is a long time to not see or really talk to my best friend! I will see him and other SC friends once I get back for a little get together for my kitty cat. I will miss her so much oh geez I don't know what I'm gonna do! I've also started to learn French with Rosetta Stone. It really works quite well! I'm very happy with everything that I've learned so far and I'm barely finishing like the first part of 4 in level 1. It's a lot of fun haha. Well the time difference here is so annoying and it just messes with my sleep way more that it is already is messed up. I feel like I should just go to bed now but it's so early really. Oh well, I'm gonna goooo. Au Revoir! haha

Tomorrow Never Knows

So I did a lot of cleaning today and yesterday. Threw away so much shit, I have no idea why I was keeping it all haha. Anyways, this process put me through major flashbacks and the like. It was weird. Things from my childhood all the way to my freshman year of college. It was almost overwhelming, some things made me smile and some made me sad. It was good to clean up though. I feel like my room is a lot less cluttered now even though it might now look that way haha. I found this notebook during this cleaning binge and I have decided to write in it until I fill it up with whatever I am feeling and thinking. I really want to accomplish this goal. I don't care how long it takes. Lately I have been listening to the beatles non stop. I have rekindled my love for them. It's so nice when things like this happen, I fucking love the beatles. Just watched Magical Mystery Tour and Yellow Submarine tonight. So good. Well I should be going to bed now, it's very late. Until next time. Ciao!

ad astra

So it turns out that some things are unavoidable. Two things in particular, or people haha. For some reason I can't make up my mind and leave one behind. It should be obvious but I just don't know what is to come. I will be going to spain, barcelona to be exact, from january to july of next year. I cannot wait! Things have changed so much since last summer it's so crazy. I'm about to go lay out by the pool and soak up some sun. My birthday was on monday. It was alright. I really want to see my friends. I love LA but the friends I have here are so limited, it's unfortunate. Well I really would love to write more but the sun isn't out all day. Until next time. Ciao.

you're gonna see me in your dreams tonight.

I'm just plain pissed off. Maybe that's the wrong word for it. More like feeling relieved that it's done. Things were just dumb and I should have not even gone back to this. I knew that he was an asshole and I told myself I would never start it again but I stupidly did. This time it's really the end. I don't really know what to do about it though. I don't know if he expect me to still talk to him all the time because I'm not down with that. I really don't need someone like him in my life if all he is gonna be is giving me shit and judging me. He is not a good guy when it comes to me. He is a two-faced asshole with the worst intentions. I know that I deserve better and it's not okay that he can get to me so much. He ruined my day and I hate that. From now on I'm not gonna give a shit about him and we will see what he does. He's gonna miss me and I know it. I was like one of his best friends and he will regret that he went about this the way he did. I will laugh so hard if he comes running back to me and wants me back and if he even TRIES to apologize for anything I will not even listen to that shit. Seriously I'm not down at all. He's so wrong for me that I don't even know why I liked him in the first place. Actually I take that back, I know why I liked him. It was merely because I had such low self-esteem that when someone, anyone, relatively nice showed interest in me I would give it a try. I know now that I shouldn't see it that way because I should be with someone who deserves me. I know my worth and I have yet to be with someone who treats me right. Maybe with one exception but let's not get into that. Shit sucks and he has fucked me over way too much and I guess I have finally learned my lesson. It just sucks that it took me so long. I just never listened to anyone when they gave me advice, but now I am that much smarter. So for that I thank you. Thanks for being an asshole.

hit em up

Back home from winter break.

Classes start today.

My break was satisfying. I did a lot more than I usually do haha.

Went to a few clubs and went down to san diego. A friend visited and stayed with me for a few days. Spent New Years with my girl. Overall I had a pretty good time but I am definitely glad to be back.

Don't really have much to say besides the fact that this year will be great. I can feel it.

2K9 is here bitchessss.