flashing lights

spring break came and went. jury duty BS. pissed man. went to san diego and hung out with my roomie and some other sc homies. didn't get to visit the birthday boy though, whatever. new crush? maybe. i don't know what to do about it because of him. fuckk. i need to be able to have fun here and have no strings, right? right. okay well classes start again and i have one at 5, which isn't bad at all. let's hope this quarter is chill and not too stressful or anything, like last quarter! missing my gurl back home, hopefully i get to LA soon and we can road trip to sd!

I'm starting to love the people i hang out with and I'm actually sad that i wont be chillen with them all next year but i gotta do what's best for me...but I'm definitely gonna stay friends with all of them! i cant imagine not knowing them, they are some of the funniest people i know. its kind of starting to get nice and it just makes me think of summer and being tan, i want it to be summer already!! alright, ciao!

time to pretend.

things have been getting better lately. im meeting alot of people actually and having a good time which is surprising. im hanging out with really fun and interesting people and im almost to the point where im super comfortable and i can totally be myself and not feel awkward or anything. good thing. i still couldnt stay here for 3 more years though...its cool and pretty and all but its not like LA at all and i just need to feel that comfort. i feel like theres so much more in LA that there isnt here i dunno. smc here i come. ive been painting more and more often, i think its how i calm myself down and just kind of unwind. i like it.

ciao.